You were too large for life. Thank you so much for showing me how to stop being so scared of death and just live my life. Thank you so much for telling me how beautiful I was everyday even when I felt like I wasn’t …thank you so much. The last good night we spent together was the night before last and we watched this crazy zombie movie from redbox while eating pizza cracking up at the whole thing. Who am I going to get high with and go eat up all the glazed donuts with from QT at 2AM? We had what they called a crazy beautiful love, those not in it could not see why we were so crazy about eachother but it was just something that we felt. I just keep replaying in my head how all this happened to you today and I’m so so sad and I’m so so sorry that you had to go through it alone, your last breath that is…if I could just go back a few more hours I swear…just a few more. I keep calling and calling but you won’t pick up because you can’t…I’m just so sick to my stomach babe…I wish you were here to make it all better My heart is broken and I miss your crazy ass already. I remember once  you asked me if you were to die would I even care? would I even cry? …. I never thought I would have to live the answer to that question so soon.

I love you baby always and forever,Thank you for making the last year of my life an adventure I will never forget. Rest easy babe, you deserve it.